Aryn's Desire: A BOLD Security Novel (Finding Submission Book 1) Read online

  A few minutes later, voices behind me prompt me to look and I find Ashley talking to another Top and our eyes meet briefly. I give her a smile and I go back to watching Dex and Derek with their girls.

  Another minute or so later, Ashley places her hand on my back to get my attention.

  “Hi,” she says so softly that I can barely hear her.

  “Hi, you alright?”

  She nods.

  “Why do I think you’re not?”

  Her face falls a little bit. “Teddy granted permission to Sir Alex to play with me tonight.”

  “Oh, well then, you’d better get going,” I tell her, though I’m not sure I actually thought about my answer. Her eyes meet mine.

  “Are you sure?” her eyebrows knit together.

  I smile. “I’m in no position to tell you otherwise, Ash, and this might sound wrong, but I wouldn’t mind watching. If that’s okay with Sir Alex, of course.”

  She blushes slightly. “I will ask him.”

  I shake my head and smile. “I can handle that.”

  She nods and hugs me slightly before taking off to wherever she needs to go. Am I bothered by her playing with someone else? Maybe a little, but I’m hardly in a position to tell her otherwise. She goes back to talk to the same person she was talking to before. He has a large bag over his shoulder and he gives her instructions. She nods and lowers her head in the same manner as Raine and Cotah have been doing and she turns toward the changing rooms that are opposite the private rooms. Sir Alex looks at me and I step over to him.

  “Aryn, right?” he asks.

  I nod. “Sir Alex, nice to meet you.”

  “Thank you for letting me borrow her.” He tells me.

  I smile. “She’s not mine to loan out. I believe that is on Teddy.”

  “It is, but she tells me that you two have been talking.”

  I nod. “We have, but it’s been barely twenty-four hours and-” I’m distracted when Teddy walks out of the hallway with what looks like a leash in his hand. Walking slowly behind him is the boy from the corner, his submissive. “She’s Teddy’s charge,” I finish without looking away from Teddy and his boy.

  “Of course, but I am not one to step on anyone’s toes,” Alex tells me. “Ash and I have played before.”

  I still can’t pull my eyes away from Teddy as he approaches a spanking bench. “Oh, yeah, no, we’re cool.” I finally pull my eyes away as Teddy secures his boy’s leash to the spanking bench. Alex turns toward where I’m looking.

  “Teddy and Will are quite the sight to watch,” he says with a chuckle.

  “Yeah, I’ve just never, never mind. Do you mind if I watch you with Ash?” I ask him and he turns back to me.

  “Not at all. We will be over there.” He indicates one of the other groups of crosses.”

  “Awesome, thanks, Sir Alex.”

  Alex smiles at me and nods as he heads toward the cross he wants to use. My gaze wanders back to Teddy and Will. Teddy has secured Will’s legs to the bench and the sight has me enraptured. Will is bent over, and completely naked. I shiver as I watch them.

  Well, I watch Will.

  TWENTY~SEVEN

  *~* CADEN *~*

  Watching Aryn is more erotic than watching anyone else in this dungeon at the moment.

  I’ve been watching him long enough to realize that he’s just as enthralled by Teddy and Will as I am. Though I can’t quite tell who has more of his attention. Teddy or Will.

  Teddy puts his cane across Will’s ass. Aryn jumps when it lands.

  I have my answer.

  Aryn turns slightly and that’s when I see it.

  His leather pants leave very little to the imagination. I smile to myself and settle back against the wall.

  *~* ARYN *~*

  Teddy cracks the cane again and I jump. Jesus, that has to hurt, but Will appears to be in heaven. His body is fully relaxed against the bench and with each strike of the cane, he audibly grunts in satisfaction.

  Teddy proceeds to bounce the cane against Will’s ass and thighs. The cane cracks softly with each little hit. The volume increases as Teddy picks up his pace. I shiver, Will melts further into the bench and Teddy continues with the cane. Then Teddy places his free hand gently against Will’s back and my desire to be the boy grows stronger. The desire to be Topped is enough to make me fall to my knees the longer I watch Will.

  Teddy increases the strength and decreases the frequency of the hits against his boy’s fully exposed, growing redder by the second, ass.

  “Ahh,” Will cries out and Teddy stops. He slides his hand into Will’s hair and lifts up his head.

  “I’m here, pet. I have you,” he says softly and again his boy melts. Will leans his head in Teddy’s direction, taking his affection and gentleness like it’s the air he needs to breathe and my chest tightens. The affection in Teddy’s eyes as he looks upon his boy is undeniably the hottest thing I’ve ever seen and my cock jumps in agreement.

  I’ve never wanted affection, never received it, never knew I wanted it, not until this moment.

  “Like what you see?”

  The voice is a whisper in my ear. Familiar and it makes me jump slightly.

  “Maybe,” I breathe.

  “Oh sweet boy, I don’t take maybe as an answer.”

  Caden’s words and inflection are unlike anything I’ve ever heard before in my life and my knees go weak. But I maintain myself, not giving in to what it is that I know he’s pushing me for. “It’s not my thing.”

  “What’s that?” Caden whispers in my ear. My resolve waivers slightly. I try and make the next thing that comes out of my mouth sound like a conviction, but I don’t feel it.

  “Men.”

  “But they are two willing gay men and you watch them like you need air to breathe.”

  I try and turn toward Caden, but his back is close to mine and he’s unwavering. A brick wall.

  “You’re not my type,” I say, but I feel his chuckle as his breath hits along my neck.

  “Then tell me, sweet boy,” His voice moves as he switches sides and his warm breath caresses along my neck making me shiver. “If men are not your type,” There’s a gentle touch against my cock; it slides upward toward the tip. “Why is your cock hard as steel and your eyes haven’t left those two since they walked in the room?”

  Master Caden backs away from me, leaving me alone and bereft.

  I should be disgusted by him touching me, but I’m not. Strangely, it felt too good to reject it.

  I return my gaze to Will. Each crack of the cane against his skin makes me jump.

  I’m alone standing in the middle of the dungeon. I shiver again. The loss of Caden against my backside makes me feel weak and exposed. I turn around, finally breaking my trance on Teddy and Will, looking desperately for Caden and I catch sight of him as he walks through the curtain into the lobby.

  I fight to stop myself from walking after him. I want to ask him what the hell that was all about, why the hell he’s stalking me the way that he is, but the realization that I do not want to know the answers to those questions stops me from running after him.

  He has something out for me and I’m not entirely sure I understand it. But what bothers me the most is I want to know what it is.

  I shake my head, clearing it, vowing to drop it completely and concentrate on why it is that I am so enraptured by the bottoms that I’ve barely paid any attention to the Tops.

  Maybe I should find something else to watch. I go to the bar and get a coke from the gal behind the counter. She doesn’t seem to be one for conversation and judging by the sheepish expression on her face, I imagine she’s a sub.

  With a coke in hand, I survey the dungeon and my eyes land on a very attractive blonde woman. Obviously a Top, but her attire is something I can’t take my eyes off of. She’s wearing a black leather corset and tight leather mini-skirt with fire engine red thigh-high heels. Her lips are painted with the same bright red and her eyes are surrounded by dark co
lors. Even from here, her eyes are bright, vibrant against the dark around them. She’s gorgeous. If I didn’t know better, I’d say she had implants, but judging from the tightness of her corset, she’s being held together very nicely.

  My eyes slide down to her submissive and my mind starts to wonder about the idea of my being attracted to her. There is a disturbing feeling that overcomes me when I realize that I’m attracted to a Top.

  Between what happened in Derek’s room, watching Teddy and Will together, and then Caden’s very poignant attempt at trying to make me see what I’m missing, I shouldn’t be surprised that my mind is wandering down this path. The fact that I’m attracted to a Top is slightly disturbing and after the events of tonight, I guess it should just go with the territory.

  Her submissive is male and he’s bigger than Will by a long shot. His hair is cut short, military style, and if it weren’t for the ball gag in his mouth, his hands tied behind his back, and him being on his knees, I’d have thought he was someone of power. But the blonde Top is making a meal out of him with the flogger in her hand. His chest is red around the harness that he wears.

  The blonde comforts him by holding his head to her and judging from the glazed look in his eyes, he’s completely smitten.

  The envy I felt earlier slides back into place until she walks away from him. There is a twinge of sadness in his eyes as she does.

  She walks around him, flogger in hand, and goes back to hitting him across his back. Each hit makes his eyes glaze over a little more.

  Lost in the trance of watching them, I unknowingly drift closer to them, hypnotized by what her submissive is experiencing. His Domme is barely a blip on my radar.

  With each hit, he grunts a little more, a little louder and longer. When she stops, I’m slightly disappointed. I turn my gaze to the blonde Top and find she’s looking at me. She gives me a small smile and then turns her attention back to her submissive and their scene.

  The impact play continues until her submissive is barely capable of holding himself up anymore at which point she backs off of him completely, putting down the flogger.

  “Carta, comfort him,” the blonde bombshell Domme says and a mousy girl appears from the side and crawls across the floor toward the man. The girl crawls to him and wraps her arms around his neck. He rests his head against hers as Carta murmurs to him. “You must be Aryn?” the blonde Domme calls and I give her my attention.

  Blue, her eyes are bright blue. “I am. I apologize, I didn’t mean to interrupt.”

  “Mistress,” she corrects me.

  “I’m sorry, Mistress,” I say shyly and she smiles in approval.

  “You’re fine. Do you like what you see?”

  “I did, very much so, Mistress?”

  “Mistress Milena. Avalon is a great show, isn’t he?”

  I nod. “Yes, he is. You’re great to watch too,” I tell her with a smile.

  “Thank you.” She smiles. “It’s nice to finally meet you. Master Caden speaks very highly of you.”

  The name jolts me. I didn’t expect to hear her mention him. “Does he now?” I ask, though it comes out a little harsher than I’d planned it to.

  She laughs a gorgeous, ‘make my cock twitch’ laugh. “He does, but don’t worry, I tried to convince him you weren’t his type.” She cocks her head toward me. “Or are you?”

  I purse my lips but don’t answer her.

  “That’s what I thought,” she murmurs. “Well, Aryn, it was a pleasure to meet you.” She holds out her hand to me and I take it gently in mine.

  “Likewise, Mistress Milena.” I give her a smile and she returns back to Avalon and Carta. She grabs Carta by her ponytail, pulls her head back and kisses her with fervor. Mistress Milena’s eyes meet mine, taunting me, and my cock twitches again.

  I can’t keep watching them. At this rate, I’m going to explode in my pants like a teenager. As I leave them to their scene, Derek approaches with Cotah in his arms. She’s covered and snuggling her face against his neck.

  “You alright?” he asks me and I give him a small nod. “I’m going to take Cotah back, Dex is right behind me.” He jingles his key. “Help me?”

  I nod again, still feeling very lost in my skin as I take the key from him and I fall in line behind him until he stops in front of his doorway. I unlock it for him and push it open. He steps in with Cotah and lays her down on the bed. I don’t follow him in, wanting to give him the privacy I know he needs. Dex comes down the hallway carrying Raine. She’s playing with his necklace. She’s more animated than Dacotah was when she came down off the cross and Dex smiles at me.

  Dex steps inside the room and lays Raine down on the other side of the bed with Cotah. As soon as she is down, Cotah gravitates toward her and Raine wraps her arms around her. Despite the fact that Cotah has yet to open her eyes, she moans as Raine’s hands slide around her stomach. Raine looks up at Derek and Dex and asks, “May I please have permission to comfort Cotah, Sirs?”

  “You may, fingers only,” Derek says and Raine lights up. Her hand slides along Cotah’s stomach, toward her panty line. Cotah moans. My cock twitches, reminding me that I am not gay and that I love women. Especially open women.

  I follow Dex and Derek out into the corridor and over to where they scened. I’m disappointed. I wanted to watch Raine and Cotah. I’m a man, what do you expect? “You just leave them in there like that?” I ask, curious.

  Dex chuckles, “Cotah is floating.”

  “Floating?” I ask.

  Derek turns back and smiles. “She’s in subspace. I learned early on that Cotah needs affection following a scene, especially one that puts her over the edge. Normally, that would be me in there, but-” He shrugs it off with a slightly wider smile.

  “I had no idea Raine was so open.” I look at Dex.

  He chuckles, “Yeah, she’s my kinky kitten, but Cotah is the only girl I know she’s played with. They have a good bond together and Derek and I trust them both to stay within the limits of what we allow. Tonight Derek said fingers only. Which will drive Raine nuts, but she’ll stick to it.”

  I shake my head, unable to wrap my head around it. Around the idea that the two of them allow the girls to play like that.

  “It’s only after a scene where we’d consider leaving them alone like that. If they were both floating, we wouldn’t have left them and I know exactly what will happen,” Derek says as he starts to pack up his stuff. “Raine will get Cotah off, allow her to float for a little longer, then give her something sweet, chocolate in this case, and some water. Then they’ll both just lie there until we return.” I catch movement in the corner of my eye. Teddy is releasing Will from his restraints. His big hands and big body are five times the size of Will, but the affection is undeniable as he carefully scoops Will off the bench and carries him down the hallway. When they disappear, I turn back toward the guys. Dex is cleaning up, but Derek is watching me. He smiles slightly and goes back to cleaning up.

  Why do I get the feeling that he knows what’s going on inside my head right now?

  TWENTY~EIGHT

  THE RIDE BACK to Derek’s Nashville home was quiet. The girls rested, Derek drove. He and Dex were up front. I crawled into the back row of his SUV to give the girls a chance to cuddle with each other. Dacotah was still pretty glossy-eyed when they came out to leave, but she seemed okay. I wasn’t really sure what to expect to see from her when she emerged. I guess maybe I figured she’d be her normal, bubbly self. Instead she was quiet and calm and for lack of a better term, centered.

  When we got home, Derek and Dex helped their girls inside and we all said goodnight. I didn’t expect to have the night carry on, both the ladies seemed rather desperate for some alone time with their men.

  I made my way into the kitchen for a bottle of water and something to nibble on.

  No matter what I did, I couldn’t seem to quiet my mind of all I witnessed tonight.

  Dex and Raine, Derek and Cotah, Teddy with Will, and then finally
Mistress Milena with her submissives, Avalon and Carta. At least judging from that kiss, she has two.

  What a challenge that must be. I don’t fully understand the dynamic Mistress Milena has with Avalon and Carta, I imagine it would be rather interesting to hear about.

  “You alright?” Derek’s voice breaks into my stewing over what happened tonight.

  “Yeah, I think so.”

  He goes to the fridge and pulls something out, but I don’t pay much attention to him until he’s sitting right in front of me and sliding another bottle of water my way. “I saw you with Caden tonight. You want to talk about it?”

  I shake my head. “Nothing happened.” Well, accept he touched my cock and it didn’t piss me off. “He was whispering some stuff in my ear. He wanted to know why I was watching Teddy and Will and not you or Dex.” That’s not at all he said, but it’s not entirely untrue. Just twisted a bit.

  “Why were you, you know, watching them?” he says as he pops something into his mouth.

  I shrug. “Not sure. I guess I was just caught up in what Teddy was doing to him. Trying to absorb as much as I could. Make sure it’s what I really want.”

  He doesn’t say much for a few minutes, just keeps munching on whatever is in his hand. “Have you decided anything?” he asks me bluntly.

  “Yes and no.”

  “I’m not trying to force you to talk, but maybe I can help you sort out what it is that’s bothering you so much.”

  I sigh. He’s probably my best bet. I know I can talk to Dex but I’m not entirely sure how to tell him or how he would handle what I have to say. “I was so confident, before tonight, that Ashley was what I wanted. If she was willing to give me a chance to learn my role.”